kissing March goodbye.

shite month.

but the 31st brings another monthly paycheck, so there's a fucking glimmer of light.

and on Sunday, a scant few days into April, i board a plane and make my way to El Paso, Texas.....it's generally a business trip to visit a food production plant.....we're adding an addition to their existing plant and i'm basically the chuck everyone calls when they need something.....after months of fucking around with building permits and the anal-ness of El Paso officials, the construction boys are finally starting to make progress.......so i'm gonna spend the full day monday walking the plant, meeting + greeting, and generally being the twat who walks around with the white hardhad and everyone makes fun of......

but wait, prowse.....you just said yer flying on sunday......so you've got time to see shit?......yeah, the entire sunday afternoon is mine to fuck around in El Paso, Texas......so if yer happening to read this shite AND you happen to live in or around El Paso, drop a note and i'll buy you a pint......

it's been interesting mapping the area and seeing the part of the USA that i'll be in......i truly had no idea that El Paso is a stones-throw away from motherfucking Mexico.......for some reason, i had it in my narcotic-hazed mind that El Paso was actually down near Houston.....i couldn't be more fucking wrong!......nice work, map boy!

so yeah.
El Paso, Texas.
sunday afternoon.
taking photos.
seducing hispanic honeys.


and hey.....speaking of seduction......i am now thoroughly convinced that my life will only be complete with a SUICIDE GIRL.......tis a girl with tattoos, piercings, mean streaks, oh yes......

prowse is in love with a SUICIDE GIRL.


and it's not because she gets nekkid on the internet.



play nice, fuckers.......
i might share my h'El Paso photos if you promise you will.

ohhh fucking hell......another one gone......

Crowded House drummer found dead

SYDNEY, Australia (AP) -- Paul Hester, the drummer from popular 1980s Australian rock band Crowded House, hanged himself in a park in southern Australia, an emergency services spokeswoman said Monday.

Hester, 46, had failed to return home after taking his two dogs for a walk on Friday night. The drummer's body was later found in a park near his home in the southern city of Melbourne.
Ambulance officers arrived on the scene shortly after midday Saturday and tried to resuscitate him, but "he was dead when they arrived," Metropolitan Ambulance Service spokeswoman Liraje Memishi said.

Memishi said he had "attempted suicide" and then suffered strangulation. She declined to confirm where Hester's body was found. Reports have said he was discovered hanging from a tree.

Hester played in several small bands before joining the New Zealand group Split Enz in 1983. He and Split Enz singer Neil Finn formed Crowded House in 1985 with bass player Nick Seymour.
Crowded House was one of Australia's most successful bands in the late 1980s and early 1990s, with international hits such as "Don't Dream it's Over" and "Weather with You."

Peter Green, a longtime friend of Hester, reportedly contacted Finn and Seymour after learning of the drummer's death.

Green said Hester had experienced "some dark moments," but dismissed media reports that he was struggling with depression or illness at the time of his death.

"Paul never said anything about that and I never, ever, heard he was suffering from any illness," he told The Daily Telegraph newspaper for its Monday edition. "Then, after today, I wonder if anybody really knew anything."

Seymour also expressed surprise at the news, telling the paper he had seen Hester in Ireland two weeks ago.

"It was all good," Seymour told the paper from Dublin. "The last words Paul told me were: 'I love you, mate. See you in town (Melbourne) in a month.'"

Finn, currently touring in London, said he was deeply saddened at the loss of his friend.
"I am devastated," he told the paper. "I have lost one of my best mates."

Hester quit Crowded House in 1994, citing the pressures of touring and declining motivation for the group.

He is survived by his girlfriend Mardi Sommerfield and their two daughters aged 8 and 10.
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I had the pleasure of seeing the band quite a few times, of all places, right in my hometown of London, Ontario, Canada!.......Such great guys, such great tunes, and I've always had a soft spot for Hester, cuz he was the comic relief within the band.......so.....it fucking guts me to hear that he felt the need to hang himself from a tree.......

again, much like my mourning for Elliott Smith, it appears there were demons/internal strife/whatever that were not of this world, or well above professional help, and Hester just had that need to end the pain, and whatever form that pain took in his life.

R.I.P. Paul Hester.
A fantastic musician, a beautiful man from all accounts, here's hoping you've found the peace you've been searching for.

problem solved.

so that whole coworker thing?
it's all cleared up.
i thought about it quite a bit and figured the best way was to just eliminate the problem.

so i killed him.





























































































































































okay, you caught me in a lie.
i actually mentioned my concerns to my 2 other team members and wouldn't you know it, but they both had the same concerns.

glad i fucking mentioned it!

so the entire team is aware of his low productivity up to this point and we're all willing to push him along and make him aware that the workload really requires more output on his end.

with these concerns finally off my chest, i'm pretty sure my blood pressure level has decreased dramatically!

thanks for reading + responding.
you know who you is.

this may take a while.....

the last few weeks have felt like my highschool years, when i was perpetually pissed off at everything......when i wanted to rip the fucking veins out of peoples necks.....

so i've tried to pinpoint the cause of this rage and it really points in one direction: my coworker.

i really dig my job - i really dig who i work for - and i generally dig who i work with.....i'm on a team of 3 guys, basically, with our specialty being food production plants and everything that go into designing/constructing said facilities......

we work our nuts off, juggling multiple projects in various states of design/construction, and that's always been the norm......i thrive on the pressure and the deadlines and the knowledge that we're producing not only great work, but also a pretty unique end product.....

i've never been afraid of hard work and i can usually depend on my other team guys to be doing the same......

but this coworker.....

this new guy.....

he's been on our team since october and i haven't really seen anything from him......and when i say see something, i mean going that extra mile to kick out a project......i know that being on this specialized team means bigger demands and more responsibility, but for some reason this new guy just hasn't picked up on it......

he sits directly across from me so i've been able to witness these things......like wandering in around 8.30am......constantly making calls on his cellphone......and just the general vibe that "i'm just earning a paycheck".....

and what's finally got my fucking blood boiling is that he's been dicking away at some shite little project for the LAST 2 FUCKING WEEKS!......whereas i've had my hand in a good 6 or 8 different projects.....i just wanna smack the fucker and tell him to get his ass in gear!

but how do i do that without sounding like a whining prick?

how do i mention it to my boss without sounding like a jealous, overworked wanker?

our team of 3 went to lunch today and i was really really really fucking geared up to lay it all out on the table, but for whatever reason, getting me out of the office for that brief hour, seemed to calm me down......

but then i'm right back into the fire at the office, with projects and demands coming from every direction, and basically ended up leaving around 8pm......

and what's the coworker up to?
still fucking around with the same project.
and making calls on his cell.
and checking his standings in the college basketball pool.

have i just got a different work ethic than this prick?
am i overreacting to something i can't control?
or do i have a valid reason to mention it to my boss and team?


fucker!

birth of the cool

My fellow music freak Ryan (see links to the right) presented me with this wonderful opportunity to rip off his idea. It's based on music, see? And that magical thing called "radio". Ahh yes, radio. Back in the day radio meant something. Back in the day radio actually played quality artists. Now the bulk of radio play is based on image and packaged material. Will it play in the mall? Will girls buy all the posters and singles from that new boyband?

What's the word?
Fucking Shite.


Consider the following list a litmus test for American radio thru the years. Specifically my 35 years of life and what the charts deemed the most popular song on each of my birthdays.


January 7, 1970 – Prowse is born - Rain Drops Keep Fallin’ On My Head - B.J. Thomas

January 7, 1971 – Prowse turns 1 - My Sweet Lord - George Harrison

January 7, 1972 – Prowse turns 2 - Brand New Key - Melanie

January 7, 1973 – Prowse turns 3 - You’re So Vain - Carly Simon

January 7, 1974 – Prowse turns 4 - The Joker - Steve Miller Band

January 7, 1975 – Prowse turns 5 - Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds - Elton John

January 7, 1976 – Prowse turns 6 - Convoy - C . W. McCall

January 7, 1977 – Prowse turns 7 - You Don’t Have To Be A Star (To Be In My Show) - Marylin McCoo & Billy Davis Jr.

January 7, 1978 – Prowse turns 8 - How Deep Is Your Love - The Bee Gees

January 7, 1979 – Prowse turns 9 - Too Much Heaven - The Bee Gees

January 7, 1980 – Prowse turns 10 - Please Don’t Go - KC & The Sunshine Band

January 7, 1981 – Prowse turns 11 - (Just Like) Starting Over - John Lennon

January 7, 1982 – Prowse turns 12 - Physical - Olivia Newton-John

January 7, 1983 – Prowse turns 13 - Maneater - Daryl Hall & John Oates

January 7, 1984 – Prowse turns 14 - Say Say Say - Paul McCartney & Micheal Jackson

January 7, 1985 – Prowse turns 15 - Like a Virgin - Madonna

January 7, 1986 – Prowse turns 16 - Say You Say Me - Lionel Richie

January 7, 1987 – Prowse turns 17 - Walk Like An Egyptian - The Bangles

January 7, 1988 – Prowse turns 18 - So Emotional - Whitney Houston

January 7, 1989 – Prowse turns 19 - Every Rose Has Its Thorn - Poison

January 7, 1990 – Prowse turns 20 - Another Day In Paradise - Phil Collins

January 7, 1991 – Prowse turns 21 - Justify My Love - Madonna

January 7, 1992 – Prowse turns 22 - Black Or White - Michael Jackson

January 7, 1993 – Prowse turns 23 - I Will Always Love You - Whitney Houston

January 7, 1994 – Prowse turns 24 - Hero - Mariah Carey

January 7, 1995 – Prowse turns 25 - I'll On Bended Knee - Boyz II Men

January 7, 1996 – Prowse turns 26 - One Sweet Day - Mariah Carey with Boyz II Men

January 7, 1997 – Prowse turns 27 - Un-Break My Heart - Toni Braxton

January 7, 1998 – Prowse turns 28 - Candle In The Wind 1997 - Elton John

January 7, 1999 – Prowse turns 29 - I’m Your Angel - R Kelly

January 7, 2000 – Prowse turns 30 - What A Girl Wants - Christina Aguilera

January 7, 2001 – Prowse turns 31 - Independent Woman Part 1 - Destinys Child

January 7, 2002 – Prowse turns 32 - How To Remind Me - Nickelback

January 7, 2003 – Prowse turns 33 - Lose Yourself - Eminem

January 7, 2004 – Prowse turns 34 - Hey Ya - Outkast

January 7, 2005 – Prowse turns 35 - Let Me Love You - Mario



Fucking Shite.